Sunday, November 1, 2009

You are my child

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Is it not enough on YouTube

Praise You video on YouTube

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Is it not enough that Christ should call us?

These are the words that came to me a few weeks back. I was thinking about discipleship and my own sense of call to ministry.

Is it not enough that Christ should call us? "Come, follow me. Take up your cross, and follow me."
Is it not enough that God should love us? "Come, be made whole. Look to the cross, and be made whole."
Is it not enough that the Spirit guides us? "Come, move with me. Lift high the cross, and move with me."


In these words I find comfort. Christ would not call us, if he did not have full faith in us and if he would not give us and empower us with all that we need to live out that call. So in that sense, it is enough.

[Sheet music]

Thursday, October 8, 2009

my theology, a prayer

O God, we stand before you as your beloved children, blessed and beautiful in your sight.

O Christ, we stand before you as your brothers and sisters, called and chosen to follow you, to take up the cross and live as you lived, to pour out ourselves as you poured out yourself for us.

O Spirit, we stand before you as willing vessels, made holy and anointed to bear witness to your resurrection power which cries out within us “Abba, Amma!”

O Trinity, in whom we live, move and have our being, we bless your holy name.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Where can I flee from your presence?

It’s been a long time since my last post, but here goes.

There are a few questions that some well intentioned Christian will ask to upset someone and try too convert them. Two go together like this: Suppose you were to die tonight. Do you know where you will spend eternity? And when you stand before God, He will ask you, “Why should I let you into my heaven?” What will you say? These questions have always troubled me, even after forty years--not that I have never prayed the Sinner's Prayer or have somehow rejected Christ, but that God would dangle my soul before the abyss looking for some reason to toss me aside. Sometimes when I board an airplane, I have to pray a special prayer, just in case.

After my shower this morning, an answer to this came to me. It’s absurd. God would not ask me why I should be let into heaven. This would only induce me to defend myself, a self-justification whether through works or by praying the sinners. Rather God will ask, “How can I give you up? (Hosea 11:8) And where would you go from my presence?” and cause me to remember the words of the Psalmist:

Psalm 139:7-13 7 Where can I go from your spirit? Or where can I flee from your presence? 8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there; if I make my bed in Sheol, you are there. 9 If I take the wings of the morning and settle at the farthest limits of the sea, 10 even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me fast. 11 If I say, "Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light around me become night," 12 even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is as bright as the day, for darkness is as light to you. 13 For it was you who formed my inward parts; you knit me together in my mother's womb.


From my beginning to my end, God has held me, and God would hold me still. She has knitted my inmost being and will continue to do so. There is no is no heaven above apart from her spirit, and there is no hell below through which he does not descend with me. Even if I should turn into my own darkness, this is no darkness to God. Rather I remain wrapped in God’s eternal light.

There is no place apart from the presence of God. To the faithful, this is fullness of joy. (Psalm 16:11) The question is not whether God abandons us to hell or lets us into heaven. Instead, the question is whether I am fitted to God’s presence. Can I trust this light and open gracefully as a flower before the sun? If so, even in the depths of hell, I would know the bliss of God’s embrace. Even if I curl up in my own darkness, God is already there, and she will not hand me over or abandon me. And were that not enough, Christ the human one walks with me through the contours of heaven and hell.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

a rule

Follow the Spirit in all things—glory—trust God in darkness as in light—whether in pain or sickness, Life is celebration—and Death says, Get on with it, man.

Friday, September 12, 2008

Jesus and the Law of the Wayward Son

This week’s Torah portion (Deuteronomy 21:10-25:19) according to the Jewish cycle of scripture readings includes the Law of the Wayward Son.

Deuteronomy 21:18-21 18 If someone has a stubborn and rebellious son who will not obey his father and mother, who does not heed them when they discipline him, 19 then his father and his mother shall take hold of him and bring him out to the elders of his town at the gate of that place. 20 They shall say to the elders of his town, "This son of ours is stubborn and rebellious. He will not obey us. He is a glutton and a drunkard." 21 Then all the men of the town shall stone him to death. So you shall purge the evil from your midst; and all Israel will hear, and be afraid.

What I find interesting here is how this law connects with the parable of the prodigal son (Luke 15:11-32). In a way Jesus is providing Torah commentary through this parable. At least, that is one way to look at it. How does Jesus find a way around the penalty of death for the wayward son?

Luke 15:11 - 32 11 Then Jesus said, "There was a man who had two sons. 12 The younger of them said to his father, 'Father, give me the share of the property that will belong to me.' So he divided his property between them. 13 A few days later the younger son gathered all he had and traveled to a distant country, and there he squandered his property in dissolute living. 14 When he had spent everything, a severe famine took place throughout that country, and he began to be in need. 15 So he went and hired himself out to one of the citizens of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed the pigs. 16 He would gladly have filled himself with the pods that the pigs were eating; and no one gave him anything. 17 But when he came to himself he said, 'How many of my father's hired hands have bread enough and to spare, but here I am dying of hunger! 18 I will get up and go to my father, and I will say to him, "Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you; 19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son; treat me like one of your hired hands."' 20 So he set off and went to his father. But while he was still far off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion; he ran and put his arms around him and kissed him. 21 Then the son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you; I am no longer worthy to be called your son.' 22 But the father said to his slaves, 'Quickly, bring out a robe-- the best one-- and put it on him; put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23 And get the fatted calf and kill it, and let us eat and celebrate; 24 for this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found!' And they began to celebrate. 25 "Now his elder son was in the field; and when he came and approached the house, he heard music and dancing. 26 He called one of the slaves and asked what was going on. 27 28 Then he became angry and refused to go in. His father came out and began to plead with him. 29 But he answered his father, 'Listen! For all these years I have been working like a slave for you, and I have never disobeyed your command; yet you have never given me even a young goat so that I might celebrate with my friends. 30 But when this son of yours came back, who has devoured your property with prostitutes, you killed the fatted calf for him!' 31 Then the father said to him, 'Son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. 32 But we had to celebrate and rejoice, because this brother of yours was dead and has come to life; he was lost and has been found.'" He replied, 'Your brother has come, and your father has killed the fatted calf, because he has got him back safe and sound.'

Arguably the prodigal son would fall under the category of this law of the wayward son. He has refused to obey his father and demanded his inheritance so that he might squander it on dissolute living. Not only is the prodigal’s behavior a disgrace to his parents, but under this law his crime is punishable by death. Is this why his father counts him as dead?

The prodigal’s father—and his mother, who is not mentioned in Jesus’ parable—could have taken him to “the elders of the town” and have him stoned to death. But the father does not do this. Rather the wayward son is allowed to go his own way out of the presence of the father. The son’s dissolute behavior leads to its natural consequence of destitution, kind of moral death.

This is not far from other rabbinical teaching found in the Talmud.

Talmud, Sandhedrin 70a, 72a The wayward and rebellious son is executed on account of the future, as the Torah penetrates to his ultimate intentions. Eventually, he will squander his father's money, seek what he has become habituated to, not find it, and stand at the crossroads and rob people [killing them, thereby incurring the death penalty]. Says the Torah, "Let him die innocent, rather than have him die guilty..." [Source: www.chabod.org]

Here the outcome of the son’s rebelliousness is of a quality that it would be better to die innocent than to die guilty. I do not believe that the Talmud is endorsing the death penalty—and certainly not a “pre-emptive” death penalty!—but rather is teasing out the inner logic of the law that reveals God’s compassion limiting our exposure to degradation.

Jesus’ parable clearly relates the natural consequence of the prodigal’s behavior and how the father counts the son as dead already. If the father counts the son as dead, then there is no taking him before the elders to be prosecuted.

The prodigal’s brother makes the stronger case against his brother who “has devoured [the father’s] property with prostitutes.” He contrasts his own obedience with his brother’s disobedience (Luke 15:29-30). Does the righteous brother have a right to call the death penalty on his brother? No, Torah states that only his father and mother, not siblings, may take hold the son and bring him before the elders. The brother is not permitted to bring judgment against his brother.

[Did the father allowed the prodigal to run off with his inheritance to protect him from the wrath of his brother?]

In returning to his father, the prodigal is taking the risk that his parents will bring him to judgment. His life has become so unbearable that he is willing to take this risk. The son has faith in his father’s mercy that he will receive him as a slave and spare his life. The son is willing to accept the judgment against him, but trusts his father more.

He is willing to confess, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you.” (Luke 15:18b) The consequence of sinning against heaven was the famine that brought him to near starvation. The repentant son goes two steps further when he pleads, “I am no longer worthy to be called your son; treat me like one of your hired hands.” (Luke 15:19) He had failed to honor father and mother (Deuteronomy 5:16), so he says he is no longer worth to be called a son. He is humbled. Finally, he pledges obedience, now the obedience of a slave, not a son. He has repented of his stubbornness and rebelliousness.

So how does Jesus get around the law of the wayward son? I believe the answer is in how the father counts as dead and as alive. The father counts the rebellious son as dead, in which case the law no longer holds. A dead son cannot be brought to trial. Meanwhile the judgment of heaven, famine, brings the son to repentance wherein the son has returned from the dead. Alive again, the son is no longer stubborn or rebellious, so there is no charge to be brought against him. New life and ultimately resurrection is itself redemptive. The father then is able to rejoice. Before the accusing brother, he says, “But we had to celebrate and rejoice, because this brother of yours was dead and has come to life; he was lost and has been found.” (Luke 15:32)

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

And in the Holy Spirit

I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Lord and giver of life.

In the beginning before the word of creation, you hovered over the face of the deep.
At the end your knowledge will cover all the earth as water covers the sea.
Even now, you search the soul for a home of new creation.

Blessed are you who moves upon the heart that rivers spring forth.
Blessed are you who flows within the soul that dried things are restored.
You breathe in all that is green.

You shadow your saints wherein your word is hidden.
You whisper to your prophets and the word is spoken.
You shine upon your child, a revelation.

You hear the cry of the broken hearted and send prayer up to heaven.
You gather the meek of the land and scatter the proud in their delusion.
Through water, you drive your children into the wilderness.

You reveal yourself in blaring horns, fire and smoke upon the mountain.
You call your servant to come up higher and receive full instruction.
You inscribe your own soul upon these stones.

Make not for me an altar of stone nor ascend by steps, only sacrifice on an altar of earth.

You terrify them from your holy hill to make no gods of gold and to server no other.
You burn hot against brazen children.
You sanctify your people to make them holy.

You say, “You shall be holy for I, the Lord your God am holy.”
Among your children you wish to dwell.
So you fashion from a virgin an earthly tent full of glory.

You hide my child in a peasant’s cloak to walk a bitter journey.
You fall to depths where no one escapes.

Turn, my child, the kingdom is at hand!

Awake! You, the ear of those who listen.
Awake! You, the eye of those who see.
Behold, the beloved is stricken.

Come O wind and bear them up.
Come O driver, wheel, and chariot.
Come knit my beloved and bride forever.

And I will dwell here among my people.

Friday, September 5, 2008

To love our neighbors, take 2

Blake Huggins offers a different take on love of neighbor, Solidarity & Love of Neighbor, the social justice aspect of loving neighbor. This includes a wonderful quote from Ada Maria Isasi-Diaz. Blake asks "whether the giving and the solidarity are really authentic or simply cheap gimmicks to appease a guilty conscience either individual or collective."

One problem with charity and a "show of solidarity" is that we preserve even strengthens our own status as superior to the recipient of our sympathy. Socially we become more "deserving" when we are known to be a charitable person or even a "champion" for the cause of the downtrodden.

Even profit-driven corporations will give to charities and align themselves with social causes because it enhances "brand value" and "goodwill". It's a calculated move to enhance the position of the company. This is especially telling when a corporation spends more money advertising their goodwill than they ever gave in the first place. From a PR perspective, a gift of a couple million dollars to a high visibility cause can generate the equivalent of many more millions of dollars worth of advertising, and paid advertising can further boost the ROI of charity.

For example, all through the Olympics I saw ExxonMobil ads touting their work fighting malaria in Africa, "Roll Back Malaria." How many million more have they spent on prime air time to make themselves appear more socially responsible. At the end of the day, they post record-breaking profits and leave a massive trail of environmental degradation behind them. "Corporate responsibility" is self-interest.

Perhaps some good comes of this--and I hope that it does--but does corporate charity really fulfill the command to love neighbor?

It's easy to pick on corporations. They only exist to serve capital. They are what they are, but Christ calls his disciples to something higher. Loving neighbor as ourself needs to be more than loving ourself.